I went to watch movie Nights in Rodanthe at night alone as it was last show in cineworld, as honeyion is not beside me.

The movie made me cry at the end. Paul finally left the world behind, also left the woman he loved. However, when Adrienne talked about their love to her daughter,  she said the love is encourage to people and make them feel that everything is possible.

Love changes person. Adrienne changed Paul, makes him a man who started to give love to people around and care the one he loved. Yes, love do change person. Love changes me, encourage me, makes me feel wherever in this world I am not lonely. Love sometimes is like rainbow, sometimes like sun-shower, but it is sun, always shining everywhere in the heart.

The last scene in the movie is Adrienne wandering on the beach and feeling her lover. And suddenly she saw group of horses running on the beach, that moment she found the new life. She is facing the sea, opening arms, embracing the life.

When I talked this movie to Salman, asking his opinion. He asked me, what do you think the running horse shows?

To be honest, I don't exactly know. Then I said maybe energy, new life?

He laughed at me, said, it shows beauty, power, and nature.

I asked, why Adrienne found her new life after seeing the running horse on the beach?

He said, because nature is life; and when you can feel nature, you feel life.

He kept saying, if you look at sky at night or any time during sunset or sunrise, you will feel life, you will find your existence. You will come to know that you exist in this universe.

I don't know what to say. He gave me a good lesson about life. Then I know the love itself is spirit, is soul inside ourselves.

Suddenly remember the song we both love:

You fill up my senses/Like a night in the forest/Like the mountains in springtime/Like a walk in the rain/Like a storm in the desert/Like a sleepy blue ocean/You fill up my senses/Come fill me again

Come, let me love you/Let me give my life to you/Let me drown in your laughter/Let me die in your arms/Let me lay down beside you/Let me always be with you/Come, let me love you/Come love me again

Let me give my life to you/Come, let me love you/Come love me again

You fill up my senses/Like a night in a forest/Like the mountains in springtime/Like a walk in the rain/Like a storm in the desert/Like a sleepy blue ocean/You fill up my senses/Come fill me again

------------------To my love

刚搬进新屋的时候，满心兴奋，又是买洗涤剂，又是买清新剂，又是买地毯、墩布。还买了给马桶沿上悬挂的那种香味剂，还有房间里插电的那种自动清新剂，用一次性的那种消毒纸巾把房间里搞得一尘不染，老妈都说，呦~你房间还不错，厕所那么干净。好家伙！她可晓得我花了多少时间和金钱啊。还把房间家具水管大大小小的缝隙用胶带纸层层粘住。买了很多熏香，天天在房间和厕所熏，搞得味道好极了。于是我在这一片小天地里舒舒服服地生活着，可哪知享受这一切舒适的却不只我一个，直到我发现了小强们。那天关灯睡觉，总觉得似乎有东西在动，有一些小动静，开灯，发现小强妈妈在领着小强悠闲地在我新买的地毯上散步。我抄起RAID对准了就喷，小强挣扎了几下不动了，小强妈妈比较大个，还在垂死挣扎，我对准它使劲地喷，直到它扭动几下不再挣扎，接着小强的哥哥出现在我眼前，还有小强的两个小baby，又是一阵猛喷，它们倒在了我面前。小三同志英明，临走的时候买了一瓶RAID，我说，切，我房子这么干净，用不着用不着，他说还是买了吧，我不想我不在的时候你被虫子吓死。我当时还一脸不屑的神情，没想到还真应验了。

把小强一家喷死的当晚，满屋子杀虫剂的气味，我不敢开窗，发誓要和小强们同归于尽，于是把自己在被窝里闷了一夜。第二天起床看到满地的死尸，感到心满意足，然后发现自己用完了整整一瓶的RAID，第二天爬楼梯都晕，毒性太大了，自己没死，简直万幸。后来细细一想，虽然小强一家死掉了，但是他的远亲近邻，他的对门，他的兄弟姐妹们肯定还有千千万。该怎么办呢？我愁啊，咨询了八方意见，亲爱的Grace同学给了我些蟑螂粉笔和毒饵，然后我又买了一瓶RAID。他们说伦敦是老鼠和蟑螂的天堂，特别是你家附近有餐馆的话。我听了都傻了，我楼下就是卖炸鸡的，隔壁就是卖Kabarb的，附近还有一家农贸市场。

生活实在是太不容易了，对我，也对小强。后来我发现了两具新的尸体，但是在夜深人静的时候，我仍然可以听到他们在柜子后面，墙缝中，管道间活动的声音，于是我必须强迫自己听着音乐入睡。特别是在做过饭之后，我习惯了立即洗碗，把食物都放进冰箱，擦洗灶台，扔掉垃圾。这些事情很麻烦，我发誓不把小强们毒死，也要把他们饿死。

只是恐怖的是，我在明敌在暗，这样的持久性斗争谁胜谁负还是未知数。